I went running this morning, and it has been awhile. Awhile since I could leave the house, awhile since I could justify the heavy breath of exertion when my sweet girl was struggling with her shallow breaths.
It has been awhile since normal.
My children are going back to work, back to school, and I am going back to laundry and meal plans and catching up. Catching up with this new normal that we never wanted and don’t want now.
I am completely amazed at the grace that has abounded. Grace for choosing burial clothes and a final resting place. Grace for seeing pieces of Marissa’s life all around. Grace for getting up and moving through each day.
Grace for walking the path of last things.
And now grace for stepping into new.
I would be so lost if I were not already found. I would be so lost without Jesus.
Early in our journey, our pastor encouraged us to think of this road as our assignment from God. There were so many times I remembered that when I felt I could not do the new thing ahead.
If God gives me something to do, He does enable. If He sends me down a difficult path, He does strengthen.
He will most assuredly see me through.
Marissa finished her assignment well because He saw her through.
We are encouraging our children to be brave in this new assignment. To allow sadness and heartache to do its work, but to keep walking in this appointed path.
This appointed path of small things.
The walk of faith is mostly small steps. It’s mostly mundane. It’s getting up each day and choosing to walk the pilgrim way. We can’t see too far ahead, and we’re not supposed to.
Our steps would falter if we saw the miles ahead, the sometimes weary road. Our steps would falter if we saw the mountains we would climb or the valleys we would walk through.
We might shrink back from leaping over chasms deep.
But we can take the small steps of today. We can walk by faith today. We can do our assignment for today–the grieving, the loving, the every-day living.
All the little things that make up a life, that lead us on to glory.
We can be faithful to God in all the little things of today.
He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God? Micah 6:8